Welcome To My Life...

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud 
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

The song just hit straight into me... DEFINITELY the feelings and emotions I'm feeling are poured into the song.

 These days, I'm confused... really. I am now in the 4th year of my college life. And these things are things bothering me again. I just thought I can overcome this... but no way! They are even not getting better this time they are getting worst, more than i could ever imagine. I had this feeling that

I'm typically the girl who doesn't share much of her personal life to everybody but to someone i feel like I'm comfortable to talk with. Whenever I feel like I can't handle my feelings anymore, I burst out into tears soaking my pillow and call Jesus. It's great knowing He is just a call away. I don't need cellphone and load to call him, I don't have to tell Him where we have to meet but it's just instant like a blink of an eye, all of a sudden I felt relieved and knowing I'm on His shoulder crying.


I can say that I am a talented and interesting girl. Been drawing since five y.o. Had interest with sports, been dancing, writing songs, playing the guitar, photography as a hobby, been writing, and creative in many ways. Since I know a little about the world I'm living... I've been curious of what is out there beyond my borders. I'm talking about the other side of the world. Who is there? What was there? How does it feels like to be there! And so I was fascinated by the world out there. I wanted to go there! I wanna know what's there!

Living life here was never really easy, it never was and so I guess living in the other world. But I see a lot of opportunities of me out there. They value talent rather than beauty. They consider fearless ideas rather than being cowardly traditional. I felt like I was deprived of showing what I got... I know I got, if they only knew. I get a bit frustrated knowing I will never have the chance... a bit impatient waiting for years still nothing happens. But those years of waiting, pondering what I really want to do gave me faith to hold on.  I know I can. I just still need to go through tough roads, if I got the chance I will never let it pass me by. 

A Perfect Love Story.

In every girl's dream... there would always be a prince in a striking suit who rides in his gallant white horse that would make your world in a slow motion... you can barely feel the world around you that they are all but blur except him. Golden leaves are dancing around that made the moment perfect and his scent is as sweet as the sweetest scent you could ever smell, then... he walk towards you... it's magic! Undeniably the best feeling you wanted to stay in you heart.

Eyes are wide open, trying to catch your breath as he's smiling that sends a strong feeling of sparks into your body... his eyes shines that made your knees tremble... those words won't just slip away but all you wanted to say is... "take me to places where we could be together and it would be forever"

He is simply just beautiful... he is the best you have ever known... and the wind whispers melodies that only a heart could understand. Only him... enough to make everything stop. Just him who could stop your heart from beating. One can never judge  a princess' love to her prince, its unconditional and priceless, just like those long nights of dancing under the moonlight, where you hear laughters of happiness and a music from nowhere that made the night so much perfect. Perfect for lovers.

But in every love story.. even the sweetest and close to perfection. There always be, moments of sadness, sufferings, and sacrifices. It's unbelievable how two hearts could fought a fight and win over hundreds of poignant hearts. It's as strong as how the earth had stand over billions of years and how it protected the ones who betrayed her. It's as endless as time and inconceivable as the heavens. And it's the only thing that breathe life to all.

A perfect love story isn't about on how many times you've kissed, you've been together or laughing together. It's about how you conquered everything, no matter how hopeless things may go and about how the two of you stayed strong and the ties establish between you had never been destroyed... not even once.

-Sussie Gaviola

Speak Now! The Guy Named John :) ♥

As I wrote this the smell of the buko pie freshly rooted out from the oven invades my senses. It smells like the very light days of mine and the sweetness I've tasted make me want for more...

This day started okay! I decided to walk a bit farther to find for a jeep and less than a minute luckily i found a half empty and half full PUJ. I scan the windshield to look if the front seat was empty. Then I recognized a very familiar face and it kinda suggest that there was a vacant seat. I immediately knew that it was him... the guy named John who was my classmate when I was still in my first year of college. A smile was drawn to my face as I tried to keep my cool! Really! I never thought it would happen! I remembered a lot of time when we shared the same ride together but that was the first time we ever shared a front seat ride. I felt comfortable sitting next to him it felt like "nothing really matters" except that the heat of the sun literally penetrates into my skin ;( It'd really destroyed the freshness I've felt that fairytale morning! The ride lasted for 30 mins. and the sparks flew lasted ...

   I really did watch him sleeping from the passenger side. I thought it's cute. ♥ 
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speak now! if only I could...-Sussie Gaviola

My Valentine's Day! feb.14.11

with classmates after receiving an award

How will I start this? Well... this day turned out to be such a wonderful day!!! I never thought that this would be actually one of my favorite days. We just been awarded for being a "naning" student! LOL.  Preferably this day are for lovers, yet different for mine! I go out dates with friends! And we had so much fun. We laughed hysterically! My whole day are occupied with lots of activities. The CAS Recognition day is awesome. We enjoyed it so much. Laugh with classmates, get touched and enjoyed taking pictures together.


I was actually hitting birds with one stone!

by the end of class. that was 8:30 p.m.  All i ever thought was to go home, eat, upload photos and sleep because it was really a tiring day, yet I was invited by my classmates to go out. We had dinner at KFC and really had a full and quality time together. This is such an amazing day for me! I just hope it would lasts.

The Best Taylor Swift Song. (the best day)

 I will love this song FOREVER!!!

Baby Taylor Swift and her mother Andrea Swift

I uploaded  Taylor Swift's most sincere song of her FEARLESS album in the summer of 2009 on Youtube entitled The Best Day, it's a song written for her mother named Andrea Swift. The song really touches me and every time I listen to it I couldn't just help but to wander into heaven. It's quite funny, when i made this video. I was only using a digital camera to record the video and put an audio when I edit it, turned out to have a bit bad video quality but the audio sounds good; still couldn't believe all the positive comments of the people about the song and the video and it really had thousans of views. Taylor Swift's till inspires me... in many ways. To all Taylor fans out there let us keep track of her and give her support. Thanks<3. {{{hey there! say something bout it :)}}

Taylor Swift's Speak Now World Tour Concert; Live in Manila. Feb.19, 2011

Taylor Swift's Speak Now world tour concert in Phils. will be on February 19, 2011. That's gonna be one week from now! Unfortunately! i can't come. The concert has sold out last November 2010 plus I don't have  enough money even for the plane ticket. :'( ... but i'm quite sure, someday i'll witness it by myself and sure to rock the night out. I am really desperate to come, really DESPERATE!!! :( ... i could trade a school day for her concert. I am certain in meeting her SOMEDAY, if i'm lucky enough. I'll pray and wish and hope  to meet her, even just for a minute!

i <3 u Tay!

Love Month- Feb. 14 is coming...

so... its Feb. 8 and as i wrote this the weather is kinda hot yet windy! everything's fine except that I am still alone this Valentine. LOL. Alone in a sense that i don't have my other half to celebrate this very festive mood of hearts. but it's okay though! I would celebrate that day together with my college classmates; woah! it would be CAS recognition day; and i would be receiving an award of being a dean's lister, for the first time in  my college life. at least i've experienced how it would feel like.. haha!!!

am not really bothered about being "SINGLE" this love month... cuz i still trying to figure out what to do. really got big plans and i prefer to achieve it with this status. but if he would  come; i'll let him join my sufferings. lol :). got to go to school. I wish this day would be a happy day.-clover.